A new start?

For almost two years I’ve have been doing weight watchers.  I would like to call it over eaters anonymous.  Every Tuesday I go in, stand on a scale and hope for the best.  Except for the last six month I have not followed the plan like I should and for that I have gained twenty pounds.  So now what?  How do I get on track?  I know that something has to be done.  I can not keep gaining.  So here I am at crossword wondering which way to go.  Its time to get with it.  A kick in the Ass.  Back on plan.  Start tracking, cut back on the sweets and a little exercise.  So here’s to me.  In with the new and out with the old.  cheers everyone.

Joy of eating

Today I had a realization today.  For the first time today it hit me like a ton of bricks.  I am a foodie.  A lover of food.  Not just the way it smells but the way it looks and presented.  I find it amazing how different ingredients come together and creates something blissful.  Of course I do not cook as often as I should but when I do it brings joy to me.  Another piece of heaven for me is eating out.  My heart flutters the moment the doors open and the aroma of the daily special floats through the air.  The moment I am seated excitement comes over me.  What will I order today?  Glancing over the menu trying to figure out the perfect meal.  Then after waiting for my meal and it’s set before me, that little voice within cries out “YESSSSS”.  Then the whole process starts again with the next meal.  Total happiness.

An update

Hello to all.  Sorry for not writing for awhile but its the same old routine.  Go to work, watch t.v. and once in awhile to bingo or to the casino.  Now my love and myself are taking care of her grandpa.  He is an interesting man.  For years he was a reserved police officer and worked security downtown.  At the rightful age of 81 he suffers from dementia.  Its amazing what passes through his mind.  Stories about his childhood, living in Pennsylvania to being in the Navy.  We are seeing a different side of a man who we never new.

Birthday Wishes

Ah, a other day gone by.  On July 14th was my 27th birthday.  What now?  Where do I go from here.  I guess I need to figure out my goals for this year.  Of course I have the obvious ones.  Watch my weight (loose weight), eat better and exercise.  But is that it?  I read my goals and think to myself how boring.  Its time for me to step it up.  Don’t get me wrong I will keep my original goals but maybe add some spice.  Like learn how to cook an exotic meal.  Ride a bike.  Travel.  Mend old relationships.  I guess the world is my oyster.  Only time is going open it up.  At least I will try to dance my way through this year.

family moments

Sorry I haven’t written in awhile but between helping family, the fourth of July and birthdays I just haven’t had the time. So here’s an update.

Its been hectic here since the 25thof June.  It all started with my youngest brothers birthday.  Of course that day the arguments between my love and I started but that’s a whole other chapter.  The following Saturday my family threw a BBQ for him.  Actually let me rephrase that.  It was held at my sisters put together by my love and myself.  We showed up thinking everything was ready to go and it turns out nothing was done.  My sister who insisted on throwing this shindig was not even there.  She was busy picking up her husband.  So we put the food together, iced the cake, cooked the food and even cleaned up while everyone else did nothing.  Lets just say complete ciaos.  Next year we are going out to dinner. 

Lately though we have been spending lots of time with my loves grandpa.  He recently moved into a retirement community.  He is struggling with dementia so there are good days and bad.  So to keep more good days we have been looking at family photos, navy and police stuff and journals that he kept over the years.  Its fun to listen to the different stories but the one which seems to be very secretive.  We never thought he had a dad but it turns out his mother and dad were married for 13 years.  The only thing we have is a name and 2 snapshots of him.  Grandpa claims he was a boozer and a son of a bitch.  We are trying to research him and figure out the truth behind him.  We will see how it goes.

The fourth of July was pleasant.  Just a small gathering of friends and family plus tons of food.  Every year we have a cook off.  This year was a three way tie between my loves macaroni’s salad, her dads chicken wings and someones pasta salad.  The fireworks were nothing special.  Same display year after year but still fun. 

Today was my loves birthday.  It was a casual day today but tomorrow we are taking our friends out and playing bingo.  The fun doesn’t stop there.  Saturday we are going out to dinner with her family.  Hopefully after the celebrations are done things will settle down. 

life’s short

Its amazing what happensin a day.  One event can make you change the way you think or even feel.  one minute your happy and the next you could be shredding a tear, angry, upset or just stunned.  Almost like you are frozen in time.  For the last week or so a chain of events have done just that.  First my nephew graduated from 6Thgrade.  Even though it was corny, it made me feel old.  I thought how can this be I remember when the kid was born and now this.  Before I know it he will be graduating high school. 

Another event that happened this month we helped move the love of my life’s grandpa into a retirement community.  Whats a emotionalabout that?  He has the beginning stages of dementia.  Now more than ever you see his variability. It makes you melt and at the same time it makes you appreciate every moment with him.

Now for the biggest shock of this months news.  The king of Pop died.  I heard the news from my so called brother in law.  At first I thought he was joking but as I listened to the news reports the reality of it set in.  But I am one for conspiracies.  Yet there is probably not one.  Its almost like a John Ritter death.  One minute doing great and the next dead.  Just like that in a blink of an eye.  It also makes really hard to listen to his songs.  Then over time it will be just fine.  I guess for now in memory of Michael lets all dance to thriller and moon walk.

A Journey

This last Saturday I bought a pair of shoes from value village.  My loved one asked if I was going to clean them up a bit.  I thought about it and decided not to.  Not only do they look brand new but I did not want to clean up their story.  They looked like they have had an incrediable journey.  Of course it could be my imgination but in reality it gives to the phrase, walking in someone else’s shoes.  They could of belonged to a struggling musician, a street pedler or some teenager who had nothing better to do.  Now they are mine and I am going to add to their journey.

So i thought on thursaday i would get on the ball and really start trying to lose weight. Of course something stands in my way and their I go way off track. Am I frusturated by this? Not really. I gave my self brownie points for going to the gym. Plus having the weather be so wonderful, I’ve spent most of my time outside. On saturday me and my love took the dog to a place called hidden lake. Its a local park with trails and beautiful scenery. Then today we went downtown and enjoyed a field green salad with chicken and fruit. It was the end of what I call a perfect weekend. Its to bad its over. We will see how tuesdays weigh in goes. Hopefully it won’t be to bad. Who knows, maybe I will get on track again. At least I got my heart rate up a couple of times this week.

The truth…

Well I thought that blogging about my diet would make me do well, I was wrong.  So far I am not tracking one bit, I am emotionally eating and not healthy stuff either.  When I should be eating fruits and veggies, I am eating grilled cheese and french fries.  Plus do not forget cookies, cakes, candies, I guess anything with sugar in it.  Oh and to add to it I am not really exercising one bit.  At least through this whole thing I am being honest and true to my self.  I guess that is where you start.  Now its time to turn things around.  My main goals this week to to go to the gym, work hard and limit my sweet intake for the rest of the week.  Oh and do not forget drink plenty of water.  Here’s to trying and at least a positive attitude.

Thanks for reading

A new Adventure

Sorry for not writing for a while.  I find it hard to blog sometimes.  There are days where I don’t have a subject or my days get so crazy that I forget to do so.  Moving on though.  My weight loss is at a complete stand still.  So I have decided to blog about it in the hopes it will make me motivated to reach my goal weight.  This is an experiment of mine and I pray that it works.  Oh one last thing please be patient with me.